The day from Hell

So last night my new meds made me not able to fall asleep. I woke up tired and hit the snooze for an additional 30 minutes. After I worked out I showered and I nicked the hell out of my legs. When I was talking to Brian online he could not tell me what I liked to do in my free time and the one thing he came up with I hate doing. Then before we could finish that "discussion" his internet cut out. I didn't even get to say goodbye. Then I posted a complaint about hating Iraqi internet and got told off on my board by a fellow FRG officer that I m being unprofessional posting something like that. Mind you I had already blocked all of my FRG families from seeing that post. I personally find it to be bullshit that I have to censor my words on Facebook to my families. I feel like I am lying to them making them think that everything is ok when it isn't. Right now I have the 2 boys I nanny for until tomorrow morning and they are driving me nut. Also there is a tornado warning in the area and tornadoes have touched down in the area. And I am PMSing.

So I am asking you.....Can this day get any worse, really?

I have Asthma

I went to the doctor today because I was pretty sure I did have asthma. And he confirmed sports related asthma. He gave me an oral steroid for the lungs and an inhaler. I take the steroid once a day and the inhaler 2 puffs 15 minutes before working out. I told him that I had been trouble really finishing a workout to lose weight because I was breathing so hard. He said I had probably had asthma from the time I got pneumonia in 2nd grade and every time I got bronchitis when I was teaching it made it worse.

On a side note: The hospital visit was crazy fast. I got there 15 minutes ahead of time and was in out and had my prescription and was home 15 minutes after my scheduled appointment. 30 minutes total CRAZY

but I digress. so I took the steroid and the inhaler when I got in the car to drive home. I finished talking to Brian online for 30 minutes then I decided to try and work out. I am freaking amazed. I was able to control my breathing for once in my life. I ran and I didn't get winded. I just sweat. I am freaking amazed. I am also angry at myself that I have been dealing with this for so many years and never got it taken care of. grrrrr. It is actually enjoyable to workout.

You Don't Know....

You don't know, but I'm the girl who cries every morning, and hopes every night for his safe return.

I'm the girl who drags herself out of bed every morning so that he will be proud of her when he comes home.

I'm the girl who lies in bed longing for him to be lying next to me.

I'm the girl who sits quietly because all I can think about is that next moment when he will safely be in my arms again.

You don't know, but I'm the girl with a million things to say, but not one will come out without the thought of him.

I'm the girl who checks my cell phone every five seconds just to make sure I haven't missed his call.

I'm the girl who stops and stares and wishes for him to return soon each and every time another man in uniform walks by.

What you don't know is that I know love on an entirely different level from most. 

I know the love that spans time and space; that love that most people are constantly searching for.

I'm one of the girls who waits months for a single kiss; a kiss that will make the months apart worth every second. A kiss where everything in the world stops and for what seems like eternity, you can see into that person's soul and know that without them, life is not worth living.

I know more love in one homecoming, than most know in a life time.

You don't know that every time he leaves part of me goes with him and part of him stays with me.

You tell me that people change and I tell you, true love with always remain constant and steady.

You tell me, I'm too young to be married, I tell you, and I'm too in love to not be.

You tell me you know how I feel and that you understand what I'm going through; you have no idea.

What you don't realize is that I understand the true meaning of not only love, but of longing and anticipation.

-Author Unknown


Thanks Stacy!

I hate my lungs

So I have sports related Asthma. I have for a while now. Usually it is just annoying. But now as I am getting older it has gotten worse. At first it was just when I worked out I would wheeze the whole time. Then add in when I was walking up stairs. Now I am just sitting on my bed and I am wheezing for no reason. I think all of the years of working in public schools and getting Bronchitis every year has damaged my lungs. I am going to the doctor on Tuesday to talk to him about actually getting an inhaler. Since I have not ever had an inhaler before.  Maybe this will make it easier for me to run?

I have a jam packed week.
On Monday I am headed to Kansas City to get a piercing done.
On Tuesday is the Doctors appointment.
On Wednesday I work 24 hours and the FRG Bowling night
On Thursday is my payday and an FRG coffee social
On Friday I am getting my haircut and it is Brian's payday
My weekend is actually free lmao!

I also wanted to say in this post that I love my hubby so much. I cannot wait to have him back in my arms. We only have 2 months left. I think we can make it.

Sigh

They say that what does not kill you only makes you stronger. I hope that is true after today. Because today sucked big monkey balls. I lost trust, got walked on by 2 little boys, and woke up tired. I just want this deployment to end. It will fix 90% of my problems.




Sigh.

BIG BIG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Star Wars Day!!!!
MAY THE 4TH BE WITH YOU!






I will be celebrating by watching all of the Star Wars movies and TV shows in order back to back. And if I have time, read a book or too as well.

I hope you enjoy your Star Wars Day too!

Wow I have been slacking

I am so sorry loyal followers. My life has been pretty boring. Really the only thing happening in my life is that I keep getting migraines and my work schedule has changed. I promise something BIG tomorrow though. TOMORROW is REALLY REALLY Important.