Tuesday, March 30, 2010


Brian left on a flight this morning at 7:45 am CST.

I don't want to think about it.

So instead I am going to list off some positive numbers.

(for OPSEC sake these numbers are actually not accurate at all)

72% of this deployment completed
3.3 months to go
14 weeks to go
$886 earned in per diem pay so far
$2,110 earned in separation pay so far
100 days left.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Brian's Mom part 3,486

She made it out of surgery just fine. They took out a foot of small intestines. She is recovering. She will not be home by the time Brian and I leave. Brian and I have been cleaning and preparing this home for her return. We have an entire room set up and a bathroom all for her and her recovery. Thank you every one for your well wishes. You have been so wonderful.

Saturday, March 20, 2010


Brian's mom is in surgery right now as I type this. She is having a section of her intestines removed. After this she will have a b12 deficiency and we need a monthly shot because of it. We are starting hour 3 of the surgery right now. They said it would take 1-4 hours. After she is out of surgery we will visit her for a bit and then head to Sierra Vista to help get her house prepared so she can come home and be destressed.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Brian broke his glasses (we have replacements here but they are an old prescription), had to buy new civilian clothes in Kuwait (because he is not allowed to wear shorts or army related stuff in civilian flights and he brought shorts and a company t-shirt), he is flying all over the freaking place through civilian flights, and will be in my arms at 9pm cst tomorrow. His mom is going in for surgery today because they couldn't wait any more. We will be leaving for our drive Thursday morning. We are not sure if we are going to make it a one day or two day drive. He flies back at 7am on the 30th a day early because of all the flight jumps again. I think I am going to convince him to come back a day or two early just to relax before he has to go back so he doesn't get sick from the stress. Ugh.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Brian's mom

went back in the hospital and needs emergency surgery. They resent a red cross message and Brian got approved for 2 weeks of emergency leave. So I get to see my hubby today or tomorrow. It was a total surprise. I am so sad for his mom but so happy to get to see my hubby again. Positive things about him coming home. 1. sex 2. seeing my hubby and hugging and kissing him 3. he can put the fuse back in the car so I can have bass again in my music 4. we can try to get pregnant again. 5. It gave me an excuse to clean the house. 6. Road trip.

I am so excited. And sad for his mom.

Friday, March 12, 2010

What a Fing tease and let down

So Brian's mom was put in the hospital 2 days ago. She was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease. She needs help and needed Brian to come home. She was almost going to have surgery. So she sent a red cross message to bring Brian home. We were so excited. We were going to be able to see each other.

It got denied by Washington. He will not be coming home. I am just crushed. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Next Weeks To Do List

Exercise at least 3 times this week
Eat Well
Living Room
Call Barton CC about Motorcycle Course
Work on Anniversary gift
Call Progressive and cancel B's policy We even got a refund check headed our way.
Celebrate Birthday
Deposit money in bank account
Grocery shopping
Wash the pets
Make pillows for living room couch
Clean off Patio for Spring
Read a few books
Watch some more Anime and TV series
Take out Trash
Take Jarjar for a walk every day. Boo Rain I might not get this one done today.

Looks like I have a busy week.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

The Military Wife

I wear no uniforms, no blues or greens.
But, I am in the military, in the ranks rarely seen.
I have no rank upon my shoulders. Salutes I do not give.
But in the military world is where I live and am rarely seen.
I am not in the chain of command, orders I do not give or get.
But my husband is the one who does, this I can not forget.
I am not the one who fires a weapon, Who puts his life on the line.
But my job is just as tough, I’m the one who is always left behind.
My husband is a patriot, a brave and pride filled man.
And the call to serve his country not all can understand.
Behind the lines, I see things needed to keep this country free.
My husband makes the sacrifice, but so do my kids and me.
I love the man I married. The military is his life.
So I pledge to support my hero and stand among the silent ranks known as

Score my point was made

He talked to Brian today. Brian did not get in trouble like all of you naysayers thought. Here is the email I got back:


firstly, i will not e-mail you without letting your husband know,I just found it odd that your husband didnt have any college and i wasnt trying to force him to do anything. i did think it would set a good example for his soldiers and it seems hard to tell soldiers to do things that you have done. I have college and it actually didnt take very long once i applied myself. I to, cannot take classes online and since weve have been deployed I felt that most people have have time to take a course.It wasnt my intent to upset him only to nudge him to better himself and to set a good example to his soldiers ( not that he isnt already).

once again i would like to say thanks for what you do and that my intent was not to get things stired up up .

thanks for your time,

SFC G***********

He he I win!

Friday, March 5, 2010

I just emailed Brian's Platoon SGT

Yeah I know I shouldn't have but he is trying to make Brian sign up for College classes. Thats right make him go to college. So here is my email to him.

My name is Meghan Sestokas, wife of Brian. I know that I have never contacted you, and that this is not the greatest first impression. And I apologize for my forthcoming in advance. However, in conversing with my husband today he informed me that you are trying to get him to sign up for college before he leaves Iraq. I could not let that blunder go unchecked.

There are several reasons why it is impractical and illogical for Brian to sign up for college classes. First and foremost, he wants a technology degree in Automotive sciences and they do not offer those classes online. Second, He cannot take classes online; it is a learning disability. Third, if he were to take classes they would not be in his chosen field and thus a waste of government money. Fourth, because of his punishment he will never be able to become an officer so taking college courses will do very little for his career in the Army. Fifth, College is a personal decision who are you to tell a person what they should do with their life? Sixth, if you force him to take college classes he will be unmotivated and not make the best grades he could be making. Seventh, we will be leaving for Hawaii in September. There is no way for him to finish a single course in that time period.

I understand that it would set a good example for the soldiers under him. However, there are plenty of other qualities that Brian has to look up to. It would set a worse example for the soldiers seeing Brian struggle and being forced into this.

I have my college degree in Secondary Education with an emphasis in Social Studies. And I have started masters level work. I know the requirements that college courses need. In order for College to have any real affect on Brian's points he will need at least 60 credit hours. An average full time student takes about 18 credit hours a semester. So in doing the math, Brian would have to go to school full time for 2 years in order for college to have an affect on his points. You and I both know that signing up for a few classes here and there will have no huge affect on his career and will not benefit him much.

If you made it all the way through my email, then I commend you. I tried to be as honest as possible. I just hope that you understand that I am trying to look out for the best interests of my husband, who I care for and love deeply.

Thank you for your time.

Meghan Sestokas

PS Brian does not know that I am emailing you. He told me about this tonight and I had to say something.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

My favorite Star Wars things on the web right now.

Support the Troops t-shirt
So ironic. I love it.
Best desk EVER!
Star Wars Force FX Lightsaber Anakin
I want this so bad. A real light saber.
Star Wars
My baby will come home from the hospital in this.
Star Wars Princess Leia Pet Costume, Medium
Even though my dog is male I so want him in this next Halloween.
Star Wars Princess Leia Slave Costume Adult
When I finish losing weight I will own this costume!
Star Wars Lightsaber Chopsticks SET Yoda & Luke
OMG lightsaber Chopsticks!
Star Wars My Other Transport is the Millennium Falcon Red Rub-On Sticker
I have this decal on the back of my SUV.

Yay Star Wars happiness. I am such a nerd!


I hate Dishes.

I hate dishes with a fiery passion of a thousand suns.

If you look at my last two to do lists you will see that I avoided dishes both days.

I think my hate for dishes started as a young girl when my chore for allowance was dishes every single night. Even if I didn't eat the food I still had to do the dishes. I hate the smell of the old food. I hate scrubbing. I hate dish soap. I hate dish pan hands. I hate putting dishes in the dishwasher. I hate putting dishes away. I hate stuck on food. I hate everything about dishes.

When Brian was home he always did the dishes because he knew I hated them so much.

I want my hubby home. I am sick and tired of doing dishes.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Well I didn't finish everything yesterday/ Birthday Gift.

1. Dishes
2. Eat well
3. Exercise
4. Work on Brian's Anniversary Gift
5. Research Brian's Birthday Gift
6. Go to Hobby Lobby for "supplies"
7. Pick up "stuff" at Walmart
8. Email State Farm the motorcycle Safety Certificate
9. Email Progressive Power of Attorney
10. Go to bank for Notary to get me off ex's Car

Crap I have a ton to do today. I hope I get it all done.

On another note. I got Brian's Birthday gift for me yesterday. They are white gold and black sapphire hoops. I love them so much. They are so me. When I wear them it makes me feel so much closer to him. I love him more than life itself.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Technology hates me this deployment.

I think each deployment has something that always goes wrong. My friend's deployment issue is health. Mine happens to be technology.
I have dropped my laptop,
Brian's car battery died,
my windshield wiper motor died,
Brian's laptop died,
the Dish box dies 3 times,
The first zune I got didn't work at all,
Brian's PC stopped sending out a monitor signal,
The scanner stopped working,
I can't find any of Brian's pictures on his computer,
The remote for the dish box had to be replaced,
MSN messenger stopped working on my phone,
The list could go on and on.
I just want something to actually work for me.