Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I like a Boy

soooo cute

We finally did it

We switched from Bank of America to USAA. We were sick and tired of all the bank fees and we just realized that there are no BoA's in Hawaii. So we made the switch to USAA over the last month and the myPay website finally told us the direct deposit made the switch. It will be so nice because we can scan in checks and not need to go to the bank for pretty much anything and they refund you the ATM fees. And best of all the Army checks go in earlier to USAA than to Bank of America. Now because Brian still only has the Bank of America debit card in Iraq right now and he still has a few things he needs to do there we are not closing that account quite yet. But as soon as he is home it will be GONE and we will no longer have to deal with that fucking organization.


Sunday, May 23, 2010

What a week

It started off great.

and then shit hit the fan.

I had to get rid of Jarjar. He was too rough to bring a possible baby around and too expensive to take both animals to Hawaii. So he went to a family with a 7 year old boy. Hopefully he will be happier and get the attention he needs there.

I lost 2 friends over something that I apologized for and they just couldn't forgive me for.

I got my profile on facebook blocked by a member of the FRG because I "blocked her first" and all I did was put her on the same settings as the rest of the FRG so she couldn't see me complain about the deployment.

This deployment keeps getting shorter but keeps feeling longer.

I just want this all to end. I want to be a better chooser of friends. I want my husband home so I don't have to rely on friends so much. I don't want to deal with Drama all the time. I am really not a drama person. I do not understand why it keeps following me. Maybe it is Army wives because before I became an Army wife I NEVER had to deal with drama like this. I just want it all to end.

This week sucked.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I am way nerdier than usual today

I just put together this model. It is  Obi-Wan's Starfighter from the new trilogy. I think it looks amazing!
This one is an AT-RT walker

and this one is a droid Tri-fighter

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I am so happy right now

Brian and I are on a really good stride right now. We have been making each other so happy. His new work schedule has started and it allows him to sleep during the day which gives him really good sleep. So he is much happier and well rested. And when he is happier I am too. We also are beginning to realize that we have very little time left during this deployment and that has been bringing out spirits up. We have started to make plans for the after redeployment. Here are some things we are going to do when he gets home (in no particular order).

1. Eat at Tacos El Sol in Topeka
2. Eat at the new Olive Garden in Manhattan
3. Go to the Mexican Fiesta in Topeka
4. Go to Ren Fest in Kansas City
5. Go to Memphis to visit my parents and sister
6. Go to Ohio to visit Brenda and my Grandmother
7. Go to Arizona to visit Mandy Eileen, and Brian's Mom
8. Eat at Corkey's in Memphis
9. Eat at Pollyeyes and Tony Pacos in Ohio
10. Go see Eclipse

And that is just the short list. Only 7 more Trash days left :D

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Brian's Schedule got changed

He will be working noon till midnight his time. That is 4am to 4pm CST. Because of this instead of being able to talk to him before and after work, I will only get to talk to him once a day.

This SUCKS!!!!!!

He wanted to work 7pm to 7am and had asked for that but his higher ups had other ideas.

On the positive end he will be able to do PT on his own and actually work on his back and abs again. Also instead of working in 150 degree heat all day long inside connexes he will only have 4 hours a day in the heat.

But we will have less time to talk and we are both not happy about it.


Wednesday, May 12, 2010


Created by Codey Wilson and his elite step team of volunteers. The video is an EXAGGERATED act of a possible future military that is open to any sexual preference. Please don't try to cause us any problems. We're just a few good guys trying to enjoy ourselves and get this deployment over with. No one in the video is gay... that we know of, nor am I. Sorry guys. Not that there is anything wrong with that! (political correctness) I am NOT saying it IS ok to be gay in the military. I am not saying it's NOT OK. As a student film maker I was forced to release this early due to our friend in Afghans lip sinked music video. I have to admit I feel a bit more creative but he has my respect. Making these things around here is really scary because we're taking major risks. You know you love it. Enjoy it. Spread it. Lastly, ignore the copy cats that will soon follow and keep your taste for original creativity. If you see anyone using this video for the wrong reasons please help out Thanks for watching. Next one is coming out in two weeks when I get home!

I do not mean to offend. But seriously how can you not laugh?

The day from Hell

So last night my new meds made me not able to fall asleep. I woke up tired and hit the snooze for an additional 30 minutes. After I worked out I showered and I nicked the hell out of my legs. When I was talking to Brian online he could not tell me what I liked to do in my free time and the one thing he came up with I hate doing. Then before we could finish that "discussion" his internet cut out. I didn't even get to say goodbye. Then I posted a complaint about hating Iraqi internet and got told off on my board by a fellow FRG officer that I m being unprofessional posting something like that. Mind you I had already blocked all of my FRG families from seeing that post. I personally find it to be bullshit that I have to censor my words on Facebook to my families. I feel like I am lying to them making them think that everything is ok when it isn't. Right now I have the 2 boys I nanny for until tomorrow morning and they are driving me nut. Also there is a tornado warning in the area and tornadoes have touched down in the area. And I am PMSing.

So I am asking you.....Can this day get any worse, really?

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I have Asthma

I went to the doctor today because I was pretty sure I did have asthma. And he confirmed sports related asthma. He gave me an oral steroid for the lungs and an inhaler. I take the steroid once a day and the inhaler 2 puffs 15 minutes before working out. I told him that I had been trouble really finishing a workout to lose weight because I was breathing so hard. He said I had probably had asthma from the time I got pneumonia in 2nd grade and every time I got bronchitis when I was teaching it made it worse.

On a side note: The hospital visit was crazy fast. I got there 15 minutes ahead of time and was in out and had my prescription and was home 15 minutes after my scheduled appointment. 30 minutes total CRAZY

but I digress. so I took the steroid and the inhaler when I got in the car to drive home. I finished talking to Brian online for 30 minutes then I decided to try and work out. I am freaking amazed. I was able to control my breathing for once in my life. I ran and I didn't get winded. I just sweat. I am freaking amazed. I am also angry at myself that I have been dealing with this for so many years and never got it taken care of. grrrrr. It is actually enjoyable to workout.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

You Don't Know....

You don't know, but I'm the girl who cries every morning, and hopes every night for his safe return.

I'm the girl who drags herself out of bed every morning so that he will be proud of her when he comes home.

I'm the girl who lies in bed longing for him to be lying next to me.

I'm the girl who sits quietly because all I can think about is that next moment when he will safely be in my arms again.

You don't know, but I'm the girl with a million things to say, but not one will come out without the thought of him.

I'm the girl who checks my cell phone every five seconds just to make sure I haven't missed his call.

I'm the girl who stops and stares and wishes for him to return soon each and every time another man in uniform walks by.

What you don't know is that I know love on an entirely different level from most. 

I know the love that spans time and space; that love that most people are constantly searching for.

I'm one of the girls who waits months for a single kiss; a kiss that will make the months apart worth every second. A kiss where everything in the world stops and for what seems like eternity, you can see into that person's soul and know that without them, life is not worth living.

I know more love in one homecoming, than most know in a life time.

You don't know that every time he leaves part of me goes with him and part of him stays with me.

You tell me that people change and I tell you, true love with always remain constant and steady.

You tell me, I'm too young to be married, I tell you, and I'm too in love to not be.

You tell me you know how I feel and that you understand what I'm going through; you have no idea.

What you don't realize is that I understand the true meaning of not only love, but of longing and anticipation.

-Author Unknown

Thanks Stacy!

I hate my lungs

So I have sports related Asthma. I have for a while now. Usually it is just annoying. But now as I am getting older it has gotten worse. At first it was just when I worked out I would wheeze the whole time. Then add in when I was walking up stairs. Now I am just sitting on my bed and I am wheezing for no reason. I think all of the years of working in public schools and getting Bronchitis every year has damaged my lungs. I am going to the doctor on Tuesday to talk to him about actually getting an inhaler. Since I have not ever had an inhaler before.  Maybe this will make it easier for me to run?

I have a jam packed week.
On Monday I am headed to Kansas City to get a piercing done.
On Tuesday is the Doctors appointment.
On Wednesday I work 24 hours and the FRG Bowling night
On Thursday is my payday and an FRG coffee social
On Friday I am getting my haircut and it is Brian's payday
My weekend is actually free lmao!

I also wanted to say in this post that I love my hubby so much. I cannot wait to have him back in my arms. We only have 2 months left. I think we can make it.

Thursday, May 6, 2010


They say that what does not kill you only makes you stronger. I hope that is true after today. Because today sucked big monkey balls. I lost trust, got walked on by 2 little boys, and woke up tired. I just want this deployment to end. It will fix 90% of my problems.


Monday, May 3, 2010

BIG BIG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Star Wars Day!!!!

I will be celebrating by watching all of the Star Wars movies and TV shows in order back to back. And if I have time, read a book or too as well.

I hope you enjoy your Star Wars Day too!

Wow I have been slacking

I am so sorry loyal followers. My life has been pretty boring. Really the only thing happening in my life is that I keep getting migraines and my work schedule has changed. I promise something BIG tomorrow though. TOMORROW is REALLY REALLY Important.