Thursday, July 22, 2010

Ok Homecoming Update

He got in around 10pm friday night. About an hour later than they were supposed to. The homecoming ceremony was hot and short by the time they finally got there. Here is a happy picture for you.
Saturday we drove to Topeka. Went to tacos el sol for lunch. Went to the mall. Saw Despicable Me. And went to Pinks All Out at Heartland Park . Here is another pic for Y'all.
Sunday we did shopping around Manhattan and hung around the house.
Monday we went on a date to Olive Garden and to see Eclipse. We took a picture because Brian wants to document every date we go on.
Tuesday we spent the whole day indoors just reconnecting. I think Tuesday was my favorite day because I had him all to myself, no one else around.
Wednesday he had to go into work to get travel pay taken care of and I went to a transportation brief for our PCS. We changed the oil on the bike and tightened up the car to get it ready for tonight.
Today Brian is at SRP all day getting all of his medical stuff taken care of and if he is off early enough tonight we are driving out to Heartland Park in Topeka so Brian can run his car down the 1/4 mile stretch there to see how quick his car is.
Friday his classes start and I am allowed to go so I think I might just so I can hang out with him more. I am Still trying to make up for lost time and I hate being away from him for extended periods of time.
Here is one more picture for y'all to enjoy.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I hate


He was supposed to be in my arms by now.

He is not.

Stupid Sandstorms preventing them from taking off.

I just want him back in my arms.

More waiting.....

Sunday, July 11, 2010

My reflections on our first deployment together

Our first deployment is finally coming to an end so I decided that I would reflect on this past year.

I was thrown into the military lifestyle. We met in November and were married in April. He deployed to Iraq on July 20th. I remember realizing in about March how tough this deployment would be. Especially during our first year of marriage. The first day of the deployment I sobbed my fool head off. I was so alone. I went very quickly from my bad marriage into my relationship with Brian, I had not been really alone in almost 10 years. I didn't know what to do with myself. So I went home. I was already headed there for my sister's wedding in mid August so I just figured I would head out there early. It was a mistake. I was not able to come to terms with the loss of my husband on my own and I broke down several times in that first month. The hardest day for me was my sister's wedding. Seeing everyone around me so happy and in love killed me. I was breaking apart. I could not deal and everyone was pulling on me from different directions and all I wanted to do is be alone. I actually left the reception really early and never even danced at my sister's wedding because my anxiety made me not able to function. I drove home and things started to get easier.

Brian and I decided to try to get pregnant over r&r. Our conversations revolved around the possible baby, it was what was keeping us going. He got home for r&r the day after thanksgiving. We had an amazing time. We were sooo happy spending time together. There was no weirdness no space we were one again. He reenlisted and got Hawaii and was promoted to e5. He goes back and I had my hopes held high that we got pregnant.....And we didn't. It hit us both very hard not being able to be there for each other in person.

We got back into the swing of the deployment. In it for the long haul. We had our ups we had our downs. We tried to plan for our future. The Internet drove us nuts and so did Brian hopping around from Platoon to Platoon. He was getting pretty depressed. And then his mom went into the hospital. He was brought home on emergency leave. She was diagnosed with Chrons disease and had part of her intestines removed. Brian and I tried once again to get pregnant unsuccessfully (which again caused huge depression with the both of us) One of our closest couple friends went through a divorce and we somewhat got pulled into it. It was a bad time for us in general. We fought more than we were happy. On the positive during that time, we had our 1st anniversary and both of our birthdays.

Then we started focusing on him coming home. In may my job ended and I got very depressed for an entire month. I stayed in bed and it was a very dark time for me. Brian was very worried. End of June and I finally realized how close it was from him getting home. And then we had a bad storm and all 3 of our vehicles got ruined. I had to deal with it all on my own and did it well. I am very proud of myself.

I have learned alot about myself during this deployment. 1. I am a very strong woman. 2. Our relationship ill last forever 3. I do not need my family to do anything in my life, but they are nice to have around. 4. The holidays are the worst because it is a constant reminder of not having your love one near. 5. I know I made the best decision ever in marrying Brian 6. I would do it all over again because Brian is worth it 7. Brian loves me unconditionally and I have never felt that before in my entire life.

I cannot believe it is almost done. I am very proud of myself for surviving.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Unassociated Drama

Ok so Brian's unit is one of those that only refers to the soldiers as last names. They barely ever give the sex of the person they are talking about. And, the unit is big like 300 people big. Brian is a SGT. He is alot different from the other SGTs in his unit because he likes to look out for the little guy. So people talk like Sestokas did this for me and Sestokas did that for me. 

Brian has a very distinctive car. It is a dark blue Scion TC with rims, lowered, mirror tint and a silver wing on the back. Everyone in the unit wives included know that that is Sestokas's car. To make it more noticable it has his car club sticker on the Sunroof front panel that says "Criminal Intent". So needless to say everyone knows the car.

I have been driving Brian's car this whole deployment because it is fun, fast and I look good driving it lol. And because I am proud of myself learning to drive a stick.

So far there have been a rash of divorces in his unit during this deployment. Of the married soldiers in the unit (about 125) 50% are ending in divorce at the end of this deployment. It is absolutely horrendous!

Well on 3 separate occasions Brian has been accused of having an affair with another soldier while deployed........

These soldiers are all married men....

Why do you ask? 
1. they hear all the time about how awesome Sestokas is.
2. They don't know the sex of Sestokas so they assume because he is nice he must be a she.
3. They have seen me driving Sestokas's car around post.
4. They are looking for an easy out to their marriage.

 WTF people please don't involve us with your petty 9th grade  BS

We are happily married. Neither of us have ever cheated and don't plan on it. 

I plan on showing up to the redeployment ceremony in Brian's car just to shut people up.

Brian is utterly confused by this whole thing.

On a positive note every time they talk about me driving the car they refer to me as a "hot chick"  Banana dancer

Monday, July 5, 2010

He better be damn happy :P

I just spent $270 on groceries for his homecoming. This does not even include perishables which I will not get till we are closer to when he gets home so that they won't spoil like right after he gets here lol. I also spent $50 on stuff to change the oil in his bike. The rain today was actually a clean rain so it very nicely washed the vehicles for me thank goodness. I am getting my hair and beauty stuff done on thursday and friday. On wednesday Brian's car should be out of the shop and all sparkly. Then I am going to stop by the carwash and vacuum out the vehicle. I still need to clean out the inside of the SUV as well. I am almost done with my list and he is almost home. We have so much we want to do when he gets home that I am worried as to if we will get it all done. But whether we do or not I know we will be the happiest we have been in a year. I am just so happy to have my helper home. There are so many things he did around the house that I took for granted. Here is my short list.

1. Help carry in Groceries
2. Dishes
3. Take out Trash
4. Clean out Litter Box
5. Help with laundry
6. Help keep apartment clean
7. Sex (yeah, yeah, we are horny people lol)
8. Going on Dates
9. Snuggling on the couch.
10. Sleeping together in bed.

There are so many others but those are the main ones.
I miss him so much. He will be home so soon I can taste it.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Shortest best post ever.

HE COMES HOME THIS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!